Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label nostalgia. Show all posts

Thursday, July 07, 2016

Sparklers: A Nostalgic Recollection




I don't remember going to any big fireworks displays as a child, but I do remember the thrill of holding a snapping, sizzling, sparkler in the mid-summer twilight.  With a little gasp of excitement, I would grab a sparkler lit by an adult.  Even more exciting was trying to light my own from my brother's sparkler before his burned away to nothing.  Grasping the fire-tipped wand, I would write my name on the air, watching the letters blaze and disappear.  

The silence and darkness after all the sparklers were finished seemed like a question to the night. From far away, the stars seemed to ask deeper questions.  Suddenly, the back door light was flipped on and my mom stepped out onto the porch, and the answer to all the questions seemed evident:  This is Home.  These grassy fields, this old brick house, this small earth tumbling through space, and these star-filled expanses of infinity - all of this is Home.



Where ever you are, whatever the weather, I wish you a sense of belonging.

    

Thursday, May 12, 2016

And the Stars Danced

And the Stars Danced
(A nostalgic recollection)

                When my brothers and I were young, we were always watching the skies.  Our mother led us in finding images in the clouds.  Our father bought a couple of different high-powered telescopes from local science teachers to improve our view.  As for my brothers and I, we were, simultaneously close to home and all across the universe.
                On clear summer nights, we would set our lawn chairs up behind the long low farm-building which we called the garage.  Out in that field, we had an unobstructed view of the night sky.  On warm nights, we sat in our shorts and short sleeves and swatted mosquitoes as we gazed up and out.  On cooler nights, we wrapped up in blankets and our small white faces reflected the silvery light of moon and stars.
                Like so many other children on our beautiful green and blue earth, my younger brothers and I wished on falling stars.  Our older brother gave us the scientific explanation.
                “The star isn’t falling at all,” he would begin.  Even in his youth, his explanations were clear and logical, but as he explained the rest of us fell back into the stars, leaving both gravity and logic behind.
                We found constellations we recognized and made up stories for other star-patterns that we saw.  Again, our older brother knew the science behind it all.
                “Those stars aren’t really all grouped together,” he might begin, “It just appears that way from here.”
                Letting him elaborate, we absorbed the science gently, as though through the pores of our skin.  And then, we happily returned to mixing science and fantasy with fresh night air.
                “When I was a man,” one younger brother might begin, pointing to an unknown constellation, “I rode that dragon to Alpha Centauri to rescue some settlers from Klingon Invasion.”
                Yes, our star gazing was impacted by our favorite tv show, Star Trek, which we all watched together as a family.  Even our science-minded older brother loved the made-for-television adventures of the crew of the Starship Enterprise.  In fact, his logical approach to understanding the nature of things was modeled after his favorite character, Spock.
                Fireflies, so plentiful in my youth, were a bonus, like stars fallen closer to the earth.  In fact, my younger brothers and I reasoned, perhaps each of us was really a star fallen to earth.
                “Well, actually,” my big brother would say, “We aren’t, but we are made of the same chemical components as the stars.”

                “Close enough!” we agreed cheerfully, jumping up to spin and spin and spin, until we fell, dizzy and serene, to the ground.  We would lay there for a long, long time, with the world whirling lazily around us, while crickets sang and the stars danced overhead.




Where ever you are, whatever the weather, I wish you good memories and serenity.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Little Moments...

I started 2004 with the intention to chronicle our year in narrative and photos. I got off to a good start, and have a wonderful journal of the month of January, complete with great photos of my children, the interior of our house, and the way winter dressed the lakes and hills in that chilly season. Unfortunately, I failed to maintain what turned out to be a huge commitment of time and effort.

I have flirted with journaling my entire life, but never sustained the habit on a long term basis. I think I may have found my journaling "medium" in keeping a blog. I don't generally use it to chronicle our day to day activities, but the way that our lives change subtly with the seasons is evident to me as I read back through my posts. Glimpses of where we went or what we did are intertwined with the expression of my thoughts.

I wonder if I will go back some day and read, with a feeling of nostalgia, earlier Quiet Country House blog entries, as I read this today in my photo journal from January 2004:

"Very fine snow is slowly falling, giving all the world a misty appearance. The only movement out of doors in our quiet little corner of the world is the snow and the pheasant in the creek bed. As I write, it is 10:30 AM. Limerick is already out on a call or two. Sijo and Haiku are watching a cartoon on PBS on my bed. Senryu is upstairs - reading, of course - and Tanka is back to sleep, though he woke around 8:00 and was up for just a little while. I have laundry going, have "picked up" the bedroom, and plan to dive into a very messy kitchen after a little time on the computer. I spent most of Sunday afternoon making Pasties. The filling is time consuming, then I made a double batch of pastry. A big mess, but yummy and worth it. Only Sijo wouldn't eat it."

Are these the things that will matter to me later... these little details? That Sijo wouldn't eat pasties when he was 4 years old? That the kitchen was messy from a meal made from scratch? I think these are the things that will matter. It is the little moments, added together, that make a life. It is nice to be very still sometimes, for just a little while, and consider the importance of all the little moments.

photo from 2004, the first sunset of the year, by Aisling